what makes you cry?

During bed check we walked into a room full of girls sitting in a circle crying. They were crying for various reasons; injury, homesickness, financial reasons (one might have to leave because her mom can't afford tuition), leaving each other (though this won't happen for a few years). This put me in a funk of sorts. I thought their crying was silly and was over it after about 2 minutes because I wanted to go home, but then I tried to recall the last time I sat and had a cryfest with friends. Oh, perhaps I need to define cryfest. Cryfest - when two or more individuals cry together in camaraderie. They need not cry for the same reason because the phrase "misery loves company" is the motto for cryfests and often there is a depressing soundtrack that accompanies the tears, such musical selections may include "The Graduation Song" or "I Will Remember You." Cryfests are very depressing, but they eventually end in a little laughter (especially if an outside party becomes a witness to your pity party) and if there is something immediate to cry about, being alone usually helps puts things in perspective, for me at least. When I cry, I usually have to write my feelings out, and sometimes when I'm writing my feelings, I actually start crying.

Anyway, the last time I had a cryfest was when I was at Logan International Airport sending Ashley back to Virginia. Catherine and Claire were the other participants. It was sad parting from people that I had spent every waking moment with, yet we haven't had a reunion and I doubt that we will. Something about crying together brings people closer, but you can't cry with just anyone either. Crying breaks down some sort of personal barrier between people. So weird. Emotions... so mind-boggling. I don't really like emotions, but I know I can easily be overcome with emotion. I hate that, but at the same time I know that they are the essence of our identities and its a display of something very genuine that is nothing short of beautiful.

Hmm... yeah, those are my thoughts. I had happier thoughts that I had hoped to blog about today, but that's all I got for now.