Lately, I feel like I don't know how to react to anything because I am uncertain about my feelings. Different people in my life have different expectations of me and I find it difficult to make the necessary adjustments. I've been in situations where someone has been really excited about something in my life and I feel like I give it a completely blase reaction. I am not sure why that is because I see myself to be an animated, often excitable person.
Maybe it's the audience that determines my response. Perhaps I'm just all sorts of confused because ultimately you are supposed to present a certain self in any given situation yet I am unable to do so. I find it difficult because I think in all situations, I want to be the most authentic me that I can be. This is not always an option though because you need to maintain a calm, cool, collected demeanor - which I guess isn't exactly how I operate... I guess I'm just an awkward weirdo...
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