mission impossible?

You can't change the past. You can't make someone feel the emotions you feel, no matter how much you invest.

Today, I sadly came to that realization through my father. He had been chasing after my brother and me for years. He had to talk to random strangers to figure out where we were and pay private investigators to track us down. I care about my dad and I know he loves me, but at the same time I get frustrated with him sometimes. I do not know if I trust him 100%. I get nervous that he will flee the country and leave me with his debt, like he did to my mom. I wish I were able to help him out more by translating for him and such, but it can be such a burden as well when I seem to be the only one that he can go to.

I wish our relationship was simpler. I don't want to take his presence for granted because I know that he is probably going to go back to Taiwan soon and then it will be much harder to see him. My brother and I are probably the main reasons why he is still here and I only make a point to see him about once a month. *sigh*